In my ultimate search for happiness, yes a quality of my generation I dig, we question things, also please keep telling us we cannot do things because reverse psychology seems to work on us as pointed out by an awesome friend to me, she is bonkers smart, I have come to a stage where I am becoming more and more conscious about the fact that bigger is not better.
Yesterday I was reminded by my grandmother through WhatsApp (yes you read that right) to adjust my watches, clocks, and any other device I have that is able to show time as summer time arrived, well at least daylight saving time as you know we have a two week summer period usually in the Netherlands...nonetheless, I love when we have more daylight in the evenings.
Working 40-50 hours a week, maintaining a household, maintaining a social life, going to fitness 2-3 times a week, travelling often, and making sure you are healthy is very challenging. After a long day at work, I am tired, my brain is drained. There is almost no energy left to prepare a meal for myself.
For the ones in doubt, I know there are so many people from family members to random acquaintances telling you, you cannot achieve certain things because you are a girl. I remember when I told certain family members that I wanted to quit basketball in my final year of high school because I wanted to focus on my grades and going to university, someone said to me ‘Do you really think you can make it to university?’ with all their "good" intentions. That hurt but it did not stop me.
Beyond the adventures, this city gives me the balance and break that I need from my structured Dutch lifestyle. I don’t have anything against a perfectly planned out life, in fact, I dig it. Knowing what I am up to and why gives me comfort, it has always been this way.
I am writing because it reliefs all those internal built up emotions, I always can be just me when writing. I am not a literary genius. But once it is typed out, the weight is lifted and I feel happy and proud that I had the courage to open up and share. The biggest realization of this happened last year around this time. I posted on Facebook the below post, and since then I think I have come a long way. The reactions to this post was the main reason after one year I decided to share more, thank you all for the love. I still have a lot to learn but I want to take a moment and look back...
Just as I am sitting at the office I hear a fabric tearing sound and I look down to my Levi’s jean which I bought in 2012 in Istanbul when I was studying there, and I see my white thighs trying to make a breakthrough like the Jenners. Yup, they have ripped. I got up, … Continue reading Another one bites the dust! – the thigh problem